Getting harder without him

I miss him so much. Not even for a moment i can stop thinking bout him. I let my mind so busy these 3 days that it will near to crash now. Have read 3 books and lots of movies just not to think bout him. Feeling so down that skipped my office today and spent all day in my blanket. But i decided not to contact him for 7 days. I started Iskakhra(seeking help of GOD in prayer) of 7 days. I am so tired of the uncertainty in our relation. Although i have done istakhra many times before and ended up more close to him , more willing to be in this relation. but whenever we have any fight of this extent(no contact) i always do istkhara. Allah is my best friend and he knew everything. Allah knows how intense ,sincere and true my feeling are and HE also know what is on sim’s side.

تم سے کوئی نہیں چھین سکتا اور جو چیز تمھارے مقدر میں نہیں ہے وہ تم ساری دنیا سے لڑ کر بھی نہیں حاصل کر سکتے . الله کی رضا میں راضی رہنے میں ہی عافیت اور سکون ہے . اسی طرح ہم جزا دیتے ہیں جو شکر ادا کرتا ہے : سوره القمر

P.S. There are some more issue bugging me in our relation except the recent fight. i will write someday.

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