Use me like a thing

Is mohabat may bohat baar tooti hun bikhri hoon , mohabat nay bohat bohat dard dis aur bohat rulaya lakin kabhi yeh mohabat khatam nahi hui. mohabat ko me nay kabhi harnay nahi dia mernay nahi dia  hamesha phir say khud ko samait ker phir say utni hi shidat say us say mohabat ki.

 

lakin is baar to kuch aisa hua hai keh wo Ria jo tumhain chahti thi wo mer gai hai. us ki mohabat haar gai hai. Us nay mujh say meri her khushi cheen li. mera apna wajood.meri ankhon k aansoo bhi ab to khusk ho gay hain .mujh say to ab roya bhi nahi jata.

Me nay hamesha us kp paana chaha. us ka hona chaha.  apna sab kuch us ko day dia sirf us kopanay k lliay. itnay sacrifices itnay compromises ….

Mujhay nahi pata usay na panay ka dard zyada hota ya is haqeeqat ka keh wo mera ho k bhi mera nahi hai…keh jo lamhay ham nay sath guzaray wo sab jhoot thay… keh sath nibhanay k jo iraday thay wo sab ik dhoka thay……JHOOT SAB JHOOT

1 month baad hamari shadi hai aur meri zindagi ka her her lamha isi azeeat may guzar raha hai keh mera honay wala husband mera nahi hai. us ki zindagi may mera sirf itna share hai keh me us k ghar me rahoo gi us ki bivi ban k nahi us k maan ki bahoo ban k…. aur ham sari zindagi ajnabiyon ki tarah guzar dain gay.

 

 

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